Wednesday, 17 December 2008

  • I don't quite know what is wrong with me today. I've had this feeling in the pit of my stomach recently where I just feel like something is not right. My life feels like a puzzle with a missing piece and I dont know what it is not right, I have had a lot of problems recently with bitchy girls, I dont understand why people say such unkind things. I don't mind if people dislike me but why do people waste their time talking about me and my family in such a horrible and damaging way. I want a better life for myself, I want better friends, a better body, a more beautiful face. I just don't want to wait any longer to reach my goals. I've wanted this for so long and it is just never happening. I just needed to get that all out of my system.

    Anyway so today I spent an hour in the gym with a trainer and she killed me but is nice to know that I am doing something positive. I didn't do so well with eating today though, tomorrow I have another training session so hopefully I can get my eating on par.

    B: Chai Latte with soy milk (I think that these have lots of sugar...is that true?)

    L: A bowl of Grits

    D: Veal Scalloppini with Broccoli and Potatoes (I feel like such a PIG)

    Snack: MORE GRITS! and peach juice

    I think that I must have eaten about 1300 calories today. I hope that I burnt off about 500 at the gym but I still feel like a heffer. I haven't eaten red meat for the longest time and today I was just CRAVING it! I am seriously considering going vegan but I need as much protein as I can get to boost my energy levels.

    Anyway,

    Let me know how you are all getting along. I wish you strength and happiness over the holidays!

    Hugs and kisses

    xoxo Posey

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